Day 3 - Pornography

So one of my issues with my sex life is that since I'm not getting any sex I have to or compelled to look at pornography to achieve orgasm. Part of me feels like this is just a side effect of one not getting any and not having the money to support an effective relationship but part of me also thinks this is a catch 22 thing according to what i have been taught about pornography and sex. Which in that equation my lack of a sex life is due to my addiction to pornography. I would counter and say its more because of my lack of money but then again I have been taught that if you have an addiction to pornography will cause a lack of money. All I know is that in self-honesty when I don't have sex and don't have an effective release of some sort then it can cause serious problems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pornography is an effective replacement for real sex with a woman.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pornography is equal to having sex with a real woman.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge pornography as being bad and within that judge myself as being bad within participating within the construct of pornography.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of the construct of pornography.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the judgment of pornography and all of its users.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the judgment of the orgasms that I achieve while using pornography.

I commit myself to find a partner in life to have real sex with.
I commit myself to find a partner in life that will open up new doors for my being and my expression in this existence.