Sticking to the Physical As Guidance
Lately I have gotten back into the groove of creating a sort of movement within myself where I allow myself to take upon physical tasks and move myself to,complete them with relative ease. Within this sort of re-emergence of this ability naturally within and without in my world I have used it to isolate the points which I have avoided, skipped, or delayed as a result of some sort of excuse or justification for why I havent done it. And within this identifying the nature of the excuses created which then preceeded complete inaction and debilitation with regards to those points. Within this I have also identified points that I did not necessarily create a relationship towards in terms of a mental pattern of excuse or physical pattern of resistance or at least was not as aware of the creation but yet still remained inside my environment and had a direct impact on the things I did within it sort of swaying my movements to accomodate. These point also leading to conflicts because it existed as a point of interference with other things getting done or would come to a point of choosing to do one or the other.
A particularly poignant example of this sticks out to me very clearly. Now within this point it was pretty obvious within my reality how it would effect me and those around me, it did not seem to scream out to me as requiring a solution, but yet would dictate what I could and couldn't do in relation so much so it would create inconvenience and inefficiency within completing tasks around the house. So within this process of reconfiguring my relationship to my environment physically to a point of correction and being solution oriented, points such as this have arised as practical points that have a solution and can be implemented quite simplistically, but yet sort of have slipped by as relevant points of intervention but yet the notion of applying such an intervention or solution wasn't at the forefront in the first place even while being confronted with the consequences of not doing anything. It only came to the forefront whenever I delved into doing a task I dont usually do that made this point more immediately relevant and screamed out as needing a solution.
This particular point occurred as a result of my drive, nature, and essence for things in my environment to be orderly. So for example what this exact point involved was the following:
One day recently I started to move myself very deliberately to get things done around the house involving organizing things, putting things in their place, cleaning up trash, completing everyday tasks and requirements for living, and completing things that I have procrastinated on or didn't fully realize the importance of. One of the things was something that I have noticed has been a point that bothers me but yet seems to not get corrected by me or those that live with me. This was the point of the garden hose always either being tangled up, strewn all over the ground, always developing kinks, or always being utilized in ways that got in the way or inhibited other tasks from getting done. Specifically it was the use of the garden hose in relation to the outside clothes washer which required a hose attached to be connected 25-70 ft away from the washer depending on which spicket was used.
Now the nature of how the hose was connected, which hose was used, and where it was connected had an impact on how I could conduct other tasks including washing the clothes. In which the completion of these tasks without any deterrants or inconveniences would knowingly reinforce and support getting my physical into the habit of productivity, movement, and correction immediately so that I can reconfigure how my physical approaches completing tasks or doing physical work so that there is not a point of lingering, procrastination, resistance, but instead just movement, action, and results which yields the physical result, the physical awareness required within the act, and the accumulative awareness as a result of doing many physical tasks, the confidence that builds as a result of doing them, and the satisfaction of being productive which accumulates along with the self confidence as a result of doing them consistently as I improve upon my execution incrementally while self referencing what I am self honestly capable of and in what capacity)
So I got to this point of the garden hose and me wanting to have it not running across the yard, tangled up, or occupied in times where I need to use it as it was intended. So I spiraled up the hose into a neat circle that I was satisfied with. Then I came up with a solution right then of how I was going to avoid having to use it in a way that I did not intend which was to supply water to our washer outside which involved running it 70 ft across the lawn, eliminating its front of house ease of access, and keeping it out of the neat circle that I wanted it in. That solution was to substitute this hose with another and connect the other to a different water spout more conveniently located near the washer. All in all solving several problems and/or accomplishing several things at once ie.
1. Isolating a hose to be used specifically for such task of supplying water to washer that doesn't have to be turned on and off constantly
2. Free up extended hose with nozzle for intended tasks around the yard/house
3. Eliminate the eyesore of a hose running around the house into the backyard for purpose of supplying water to the washer
4. Eliminate the need to avoid or to move a hose while in such use in order to mow the grass
5. Streamlined the process of washing clothes as a dedicated hose is supplying water that does not need to be used for anything else thus not requiring moving, unhooking, or transporting such hose for any other use or does it need to be shut off
What I Learned:
I showed myself that I can come up with a very simplistic solution for a problem that presents itself and that such a solution with the corrective physical action will actually make a substantial difference in how work is conducted in relation to the subjects at hand making them more efficient, easier, and more organized.
I showed myself that sometimes the most simple things and perhaps the most easily accepted as 'the paradigm to work around' can be changed completely around relatively simply and easily and that that change can make a substantial difference in how things are conducted within and around the paradigm in a way that exudes, perpetuates, and promotes the qualities embodied within the solution itself so that those qualities can live through the continuing participants of the paradigm and those involved in it. (complicated way of saying that I showed myself that sometimes a solution can be so simple, seem so menial in its significance, yet have such a profound impact, all the while the mere awareness that there was a problem existing in the first place being faint at best, not realizing the extent of the impact it actually had on me in reality by accepting the problem as 'the way it is', thus all of which making the seemingly menial problem/solution that much more significant invidually, collectively, and existentially.
I learned that I still have the capacity for great change and paradigm shifts because of the reality of how I was able to in a single moment come up with a solution to a problem, implement the solution, and see to it that it in fact worked as intended.
New Topic:
RT for some reason those letters are 'popping out' to my eyes right now. So after the letters RT started sticking out in my vision in almost a hypnotizing way sort of like when im writing and suddenly I start staring deeply at a word as if it is 'an entire fucken universe' as Bernard Poolman described when he was discussing the process of writing and knowing 'when youre getting somewhere' ..."single words are like an entire Fuckin universe.. That's when you know youre getting somewhere". So in this case I was staring intensely at the letters R and T beside each other on my phone keyboard. As I was staring intensely at these two letters on my keyboard without intent and only by happenstance in the moment involuntarily, I began to ponder....why R and T? Is there some sort of sign or message within this? So then I began to assemble ideas such as RT being an acronym or abbreviation for some sort of sign relevant to my process in this world within self honesty. E.g. Right Time? For something in my life? RT like Russia Today? Am I supposed to read Russia Today or do they have some sort of significance in process that may actually potentially involve me or should involve me? ie. Writing for them was what came to mind. Then I started pondering their macro significance in the world of news, propaganda, and public relations.
Sometimes whenever I get focused on writing or reading things I get this feeling that I am habitually disconnected to the world issues of importance and or my role within it, and that my everyday occupations, pursuits, desires, and routines mostly serve to keep me pre occupied with menial pursuits but yet my purpose or even my responsibility holds much more for me yet in the habituality of it all, it all seems so natural and right, only seeing the meniality and nature of preoccupation or only seeing my everyday norm in such lights after I get super focused on writing, which in itself is usually out of the ordinary lately and usually only when I'm getting 'high' with attention focusing drugs.
