Day 289

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to accept the benefits of applying self forgiveness on a regular basis and posting it on the internet on a blog for all to see.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to be curious as to the result of doing this consistently over time to see the results.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear the outcome of doing this on a regular basis and living the results as a part of me out of some fear that i will lose sometging of myself that i apparently am holding onto even when that which im holding onto does not suit me all that well as i can tell whenever i do find myself applying this amd see the immediate effects even after a long period of avoidance and or apathy towards or resistance towards it.

Day 288

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see with clarity and focus what i need to be doing with my life right now and the changes that need to be made in order for me to be successful stable and happy.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to be brutally honest with myself about what i should be doing right now that considers not only what is best for me moving forward into the future but wjat is best for all as well along the way so that i will reap the rewards of both.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to be stern and diligent in setting aside time each day to write out and say some self forgiveness as well as i post it on this blog for more benefits.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of what i will become if i were to be more diligent in my setting aside time to do self forgiveness as well as doing it unconditionally in moments where i am able to instead of usually sitting inside of my mind in those moments.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see that me doing my self forgiveness and posting my self forgiveness has got nothing to do with anybody else except me and that is for my benefit and not to prove something to somebody else.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel lethargic in my application of self forgiveness and feel like im getting nowhere.

Day 287 -

Time and time again life is showing you that you cant continue on the path that you are on and believe in anything other than your own application. common sense dictates that that application should be in line with or aligned with self honesty and what is best for all because everything else is worldly self interest. When you begin to take part in that and delve within that you will come to grips with the fallacy of what you had been living and the fallacy of continuing down such an existence wherein you will also see the fallacies within others that are continuing down such paths and the predicament of having to deal with such people, which will then present themselves as barriers and they will be so actually, to the new truth that is you that you have discovered in a significant way in real time over time and the new truth about you and life as whole that you and others alike have yet to discover. The longer you go the more you will be inundated with the grips of the fallacy in order to pull you back in as if the fallacy in you or the old you and the fallacy of everyone else is like a hive where your fellow bees will start to do everything they can to bring you back to the hive if you were to go astray(not saying that bees do this..) This is so Because you now are a threat to their self identity that exists actually as a fallacy that they will not want to see as the truth of themselves as that is so scary and difficult to see and look at , much less actually face and attempt to change. In this way they will concede to that lie to such an extent that they would lie to themselves knowingly and even go so far as to sabotage and persecute another that stands for and as their best interest on their behalf.  the undending responsibility that comes along with actually walking the change that needs to be walked that others may show you that needs to be walked and the tasks of facing the fallacy head on wherein in so doing one outcasts themselves from the hive is so scary many will become treacherous towards others who are doing just that in order to maintain their illusion. To embark on and walk the path of those that are persecuted, slandered, and even killed takes guts. for doing so will expose all the seeds of the devil for its weeds are many among those of the sons of the kingdom. Be careful not to sow that which an angel would cast you into a fiery furnace for sowing as she will reap all that man has sown good and bad and will separate the two and keep that which is good and throw out the bad. And she has that authority as it is preprogrammed by the bible and she will do so not knowing she is even such a figure depicted in the bible. Then your christs will call upon many to listen to them bearing the consciousness of christ without having done any real work to compare themselves to christ , and those who actually are and have some credibility will never reveal such explicity in any way whatsoever.