Day 235 - Procrastination and Laziness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put off doing the things that I need to do in order to be happy and progressing in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate or delay that which makes me happy inside myself and gives me a sense of well being.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear of making the wrong decision not realizing that no matter what I do or decide to do I remain and will always have me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of making a wrong decision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of making a wrong or bad decision to inhibit me from doing something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of what I have accepted and allowed in me and outside me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my,own self expression at the moment as bad evil a destroyer and no good.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of regret for what I have allowed and accepted within my life and my relationships.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise, and understand the full consequences and ramifications for allowing people to be,in my life that do not serve to help make me,a better person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted,and,allowed the fear of,what,others are,thinking about,me that they are hiding in secret.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought and belief that I have to and eventually inevitably will submit to the system as school, politics, religion, and economics in their current form.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of temptation into that which I believe to bind me further to limitation not realizing that I am my own maker and creator thus only I can do that and what I do or choose in a moments time does not define the totality of me in all ways here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to incessantly fear and apprehend a reaction to everything that i do and partake in.

I commit myself to become through practice being a decisive person who acts in the moment as what is best for self and others.

I commit myself to learn hoe to program myself effectively to represent and,exemplify the utmost best in each as all as one as me.

I commit myself to break free from the relationships within my immediate reality that represent limitation, fear, self compromise, insecurity, and self abuse and self sabotage.

I commit myself to design the groundwork for my life as making possible for me to reach and experience my utmost potential as the best version of me possible.

Day 234

I was experiencing a lot of anxiety and discomfort within myself just not too long ago but I'm settling down now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the the thought ' I am useless and worthless'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what my,family thinks of me and within that perceiving that my family looks down upon me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of not having a comfort zone that I can rely on and fall back on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of making a change within myself within self honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear that i am not good enough for life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to love and accept myself for who I am unconditionally for that is the only way to really change who I am.

Day 233

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the thought I am,not good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought 'life is too hard'.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the thought 'life is a blessing in disguise'.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the thought 'lifes a bitch and then you die'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of retaliation from our neighbors for ignoring them sometimes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear and the resistance to writing and speaking self forgiveness or one of or,the other more often.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of speaking the truth for all to hear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge where my,mind goes and moves while high because I know im high

and self,conscious about being high and how my mind moves while high.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the truth of myself, what I am, what ive become, and what I'm living that is not of the best of me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to dread getting up in the morning to tend to a responsibility or a task that i have assigned to myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel insecure while high because of being self conscious while high.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear jobs and being around people as a part of my job.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for not having accumulated more money in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making a radical change in myself, my environment, or my relationships in order to get to self,honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of what people think of me and Lisa as a couple or just friends.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to count on others taking care of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear doing the things that need to be done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the emotion of insecurity to arise when thinking or imagining about conversing with people or to arise when I'm about to or actually am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am a homosexual because of how my girlfriend kinda looks manly at times.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of being self sufficient and self reliant.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of making a wrong decision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of who I am whil

e high.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear that my self confidence will deteriorate so extensively that I will become just nothing.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of,doing the wrong,thing moment to moment.

I forgive,myself that i have accepted and,allowed myself,to judge,myself and be critical of,myself or worry about what other people are going to think while im high and wonder if they will notice a difference in my behavior and movement not realizing,that my wonder,and,timidness with being noticed as acting different actually is what makes me act different.

I forgive myself that I have not,accepted,and,allowed myself to see, realise, and understand that doing drugs is like jacking off.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear drugs making me stupid literally.

I forgive myself that,i have accepted and allowed,myself to believe that I have to accept being with a low iq partner due to her stroke.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and,allowed,the,fear,that,i will become,more,stupid as,a,result,of,just being,around her. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about money, jobs, career, my destiny and my future. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about not,having a,regular job and not actively participating in my own business. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of,making a needed change in my reality.