Tonight I am extremely uncomfortable within myself. I feel like I'm going through hell within myself.
Tonight I'm experiencing fear of the future,uncertainty about the future, all the while dealing with mind games and drama with my agreement partner. I feel so lost without direction and certainty within myself. What do I do? Tonight I'm really starting to feel like I'm losing control over myself and my emotions. She denied me sex and any sexual contact tonight. So earlier I went to lay down and started looking at porn and I felt so shitty and limited during that time that I got up and slammed the wall. This is real shitty.
I don't know what to do. I feel like ending my life I'm so miserable. Why am I so miserable? Much more than ever it seems?
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as miserable.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of letting go of fearful abusive people in my life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of letting go of fear and abuse from my life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of letting go of all fear of failure.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of stopping the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of deleting people from my life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of letting go of the past and starting again anew.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of belonging/being in a group.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of participating within a group format.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of doing what is best for a group as a whole.
Tonight I'm experiencing fear of the future,uncertainty about the future, all the while dealing with mind games and drama with my agreement partner. I feel so lost without direction and certainty within myself. What do I do? Tonight I'm really starting to feel like I'm losing control over myself and my emotions. She denied me sex and any sexual contact tonight. So earlier I went to lay down and started looking at porn and I felt so shitty and limited during that time that I got up and slammed the wall. This is real shitty.
I don't know what to do. I feel like ending my life I'm so miserable. Why am I so miserable? Much more than ever it seems?
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as miserable.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of letting go of fearful abusive people in my life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of letting go of fear and abuse from my life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of letting go of all fear of failure.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of stopping the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of deleting people from my life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of letting go of the past and starting again anew.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of belonging/being in a group.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of participating within a group format.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of doing what is best for a group as a whole.
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