day 314

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of future conflicts in the U.S. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of doing what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of having nothing to live for or be a part of that is worthwhile and :good for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of my own tendencies towards self abuse and self destruction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of telling others what I expect of them and from them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate myself, who I am, and what I stand for. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought 'I hate my life, I just want to die'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the though ' life sucks and ill never get out of this predicament'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought 'this life sucks'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the consequences for my actions as what I have accepted and allowed within and as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the uncertainty in my mind/body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of the mystery or unknown in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of interacting and talking with my neighbors.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be shy and reserved and fearful towards women.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of being cast out by my family, my peers, and society at large and the universe. 

Day 313

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of the future conflicts in the United States.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of doing what is best for all. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of having nothing to live for or be a part of that is worthwhile and good for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of my own tendencies towards self abuse and self destruction. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of telling others what i expect of them and from them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of changing my starting point from purely self interest to what is best for all. 

Day 312

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for what i have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to do what is best for all instead of just thinking about what is best for me or 'suits me now'.

What am I 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of doing my self forgiveness around others or within the vicinity of others fearing that they will judge me. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be driven by fear instead of using common sense and whats best for all as my meatric when doing anything.

Day 311

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the people around me. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear stopping drugs. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the thought " i need drugs to be ok'.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of standing up for myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear commitment. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am greater than or better than other people. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my experiences on drugs are real. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear the coronavirus and the hysteria surrounding it. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to try and control outcomes with the people in my life. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being honest with myself as well as others in our relationships. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be inundated with timidness while in the presence of people close to me. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to control the people in my environment. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hide behind depression which is only just an attempt to control outcomes with the people in my environment. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to try and control everybody in my life to do what i want them to do and be what i want them to be. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear giving as i would like to receive. 

Day 310

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see the dishonesty inherent within people including myself.

Day 303

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of being poor, homeless, or having no money.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of not having a partner for sex and being single.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of asking for anything.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of not having the things that i desire.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of going without the things i desire such as drugs and cigarettes.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of lying whenever it is best for all.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deny what i really need in self honesty.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see what i really need in self honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of what i really need and thus fear changing as a result of adhering to that.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of changing in self honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of getting another job.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of starting a new career somewhere.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of starting a new life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the belief that i need someone or something oytside of me in order to be happy.

Day 307 - Andrew Yang Drops Out

The way that he dropped out of this campaign was awfully suspicious. Almost as if it were sort of planned this way all along and that he was just here to introduce the UBI to the public but definitely would not win the election nor come even close. Which he didnt and ended up spending 6 million in the first primary state without even placing 5th i believe.

I believe that the establishment has their eyes on Warren to win and lead the country into whatever new stuff they have in store for us. And by 2028 we will have a UBI in the U.S. for every adult 18 and older. And this President will peferably be an african american female. That could be stretching it but its possible.

Day 309 What Problem is Google Solving For?

Problem:

 Most people or 99.99% of businesses, salesmen, or marketers online do not know the first thing about selling so they waste everybodys time and demean their reputations more times than not even while having a legitimately valuable offering with sufficient demand. 

So what do internet marketers do? How will they catch the surfers attention and lure him to all of the wonders to be had? Well simply put by offering something upfront. That means lets say some body clicked on an ad or opted in an email after a brief description of what was being offered. That person wants to be immediately taken to the sales page where the price is fully disclosed in plain view without lines of discounts or the lined values of each component of the full product or package or course. On the same page they want to see the offer, meaning they want to see what they are getting for their money in clear plain English. If the surfer wants it and has the money or inclination to find the money by various means they will purchase the product. If they aren't sold or dont have the money nor the desire to attain for this purpose then they won't. Simple as that. All of the other clickbait or bait and switch tactics that lead prospects on these long journeys to eventually find out what is actually being sold and at what price is complete garbage and only serves to deter the prospect from not only buying then but also in the future by virtue of deliberately wasting his or her time.

 Their should be three components to every online sales flow:

1. Ad/pitch/rough idea of product or service 2. Sales Funnel to a checkout page with a video outlining the value gained from the product or service and or written description of offer

 3. A checkout page with the upfront price of the product displayed clearly without any added filler or marketing tactics that do not serve to illustrate or demonstrate the value gained from your purchase plain and simple.

This approach accomplishes a few things that will convert more customers overall than the predominant methods employed by all sales flows online:

1. Shows that you respect the customers time by being blunt and displaying brevity.

2. Shows that you respect the prospects intelligence to be able to know what he or she wants without having to being convinced of it or manipulated into it

3. Retains respect and dignity within the value of your own product by retaining the right for a prospect to decide if it is worth it to them through not implying that the product is not good enough to be pitched directly, articulately, and with confidence effectively enough to be sold on its own without added filler, jargon, clickbait manipulations, or appealing to unconscious desires primarily. Having to maniuplate  sends the message that your product or service is not good enough to be outlined clearly in order to sell itself but that it must be surrounded by tactics of manipulation in order to be sold because its a piece of crap. This automatically discredits the value existent within the product, nullifys the ability for that value to be transferred in any substantial way that reflects the originally explicitly agreed upon exchange , and discredits the salesman as either stupid, arrogant, or a con artist for not understanding sales, their prospects needs, and how to effectively transfer value from start to finish.

4. Retains the baseline assumption or hopefully implied agreement that you respect your prospect and therefore your customers by doing the aforementioned which facilitates real sales and the transfer of real value in fact. Many marketers focus way too much on the pitch and implanting the aftermath result of actually transferring the value effectively in their prospects minds so much so that whenever the prospect is half way about to buy the product they are also half way apathetically purchasing a fantasy, a dream, and an end desire as a result of this implanted in them by the salesperson where they get to the point where they feel as if purchasing the product is half the journey. This facilitates a completely ineffective transfer of value to the prospect by virtue the marketer not actually respecting that prospect. 

Question and A Lesson:

Why is this scenario and paradigm so pervasive online vs. The real world where marketing is much more straightforward, openly suggestive, and openly manipulative in such a blatant way? One word...TROLLS..well sort of..

Its much easier to be impersonal, not care, or blatantly disrespect people as an online persona rather than in physical reality. Its a whole different ballgame because apparently no one can retaliate physically if such activity is exchanged. This paradigm became so pervasive online coupled with the countless schemes to steal or apprehend your identity, character, reputation, and money that the internet became synonymous with fraud, deception, and abuse. Internet marketers and salesmen were selling white T shirts and khacki pants to soldiers on the battlefield riddled with bullet holes running red with their own blood. It was not a good place to sell anything as you were automatically presumed to be intentionally defrauding or deceiving your potential clientele, after all on the internet the clientele could be anybody so it
Lacked any personal connection which automatically increased the likelihood exponentially of a potentially disingenuous or even malevolent motive, incentive, or goal behind any effort to sell anything online. This was the environment that preceeded the paradigm of marketers and salesmen practically pounding the sale into you by creating 'rapport' over-extensively before any offer to buy anything is ever presented because the forgone conclusion was that you wouldnt be even remotely interested nor feel even remotely secure buying anything online without an extensive knowledge of the seller coupled with sufficient feeling of 'comfortability' built up over time. Therefore the means to accomplish this was blown out of proportion to accommodate this disparity in the baseline level of trust between any two parties meeting on the internet for the first time where this baseline was presumed to be at a negative from the start rather than 0 or slightly more than 0 like in the real world. Thus sellers embarked extensively on this journey to build rapport with each and every potential client so as to offset the negative gamma that they were destined to start off with from the beginning in the pursuits of a endless sea of potential clients along with the streamlined process that internet commerce offered sellers. This was simply a challenge that was worth overcoming because the potential to profit was too great to not at least try to crack the code and break down the barrier between an internet salesman, his product or service, and the endless swath of potential customers he knew would be interested in his product or service at some sort of baseline human instinctual, intellectual, or emotional level. But as the internet became more pervasive and more technologically efficient, the opportunities for well know brick and mortar companies to tap into this endless and instantly accessible swath of potential clients became greater and greater as did the potential to profit. Brick and mortar presented on the internet already were 100 ft ahead of the race because they had the advantage of their baseline levels of trust being much higher from their preceeding interactions within the real world. More so than any solely or primarily internet based company such as Google or Amazon just starting out. Google utilized the advantage that brick and mortars displayed within internet commerce by creating an ecosystem that streamlined this new avenue of relationship between real world clients on the internet and their trusted brick and mortar companies to conduct business with. Thus Google bypassed the trust element by doing one thing very well, connecting people to companies they do in fact already trust enough to purchase from again, albeit this go around happening online. All they had to do was do this enough times with consistency that people would then begin to trust them to be the intermediaries to the companies they would actually be buying things from online. This was a surefire way to be successful online and carve out a sustainable business niche that would survive within the landscape. The other internet based companies essentially accomplished a version of the same thing ie. Yahoo and AskJeeves to a certain extent. Amazon pioneered the first internet based ecommerce business that would take off by implementing a very practical business model that utilized the strengths of the internet while minimizing or eliminating the foregone weaknesses inherent within internet commerce. They sold books used and new essentially guaranteeing the fulfillment of every transaction to customer satisfaction at a discounted rate. Buying a book online was probably the least trust weighted transaction you could make online considering the only things that could go wrong were that the books could come in worse shape than advertised, not receive it at all, or end up being the wrong book altogether. Amazon effectively eliminated these barriers to sales by guaranteeing every transaction while slowly implementing ways to reduce the cost of shipping which existed as the potential annihiliator of 'online savings' of which Amazon pioneered, which was one of the key incentives presented to those looking to shop on the World Wide Web.

So all of the ecommerce sites and websites intended to do business in some form or fashion online were challenged with the same problem of which they dealt with in different ways in order to become legitimate businesses for profit online, that problem being the inherent landscape or dynamic as it relates to how people interacted online considering the inherent nature of distrust pervasive throughout the majority of interactions. This problem would have to be mitigated as best as possible wherein the ones who were able to do so the most effectively would become the gold rushers of the internet commerce age.

So how does the origins of ecommerce still relate to how marketers and salesmen behave online still today? Well essentially they are still dealing with and confronted with the same issue or problem that the pioneers within the industry were confronted with at the onset and thus had to solve in a way that would establish their presence online with legitimacy while accumulating the essence of that which was missing from the entire landscape as a byproduct of solving the trust issue in itself. So coincidentally by solving the trust issue well enough to facilitate the transaction of business within their guide or under their name, they started to accrue that which they were poised to absolve or mitigate from their respective business models as the great barrier to fluid ecommerce for themselves. This created a doubling effect of their operations for as the more they solved this centric problem existent within the core fabric of how people communicated or exchanged ideas online, the more they began to embody the nature of what was missing within this fabric in order for transactions to occur and multiply over time within and across the landscape. The more they were seen as the beacons and preservers of trust within a landscape inherently absolved from seemingly any accountability whether it be casual interaction, business soliticitation, or personal expression. This would set them up to become the dominant superpowers within and through the landscape and coincidentally acquire more personal information of its users than any brick and mortar company would ever be able to in its entire lifetime.

So marketers and any business online are still faced with the same fundamental problem with transacting over the internet that the now superpowers have became masters at solving. That is the issue of trust. And each in a way are starting at ground zero just like Google and Amazon had to albeit there exist a few more lubricators whose job is to help solve this problem for businesses or individuals like them than there were at the inception of Alphabet aka Google(there were virtually none). But today's new online sales people, businesses, and self promoters even while having the "advantage" of intermediaries to establish trust in their brands for them, they still are essentially operating at ground zero as far as the nature of the landscape perhaps even farther behind considering the rate and volumes of which the nature of anything online can occur are exponentially higher, thus in many ways existing within a more cynical, toxic, and paralysed environment than before. The illusion is that in a way these pioneers have increased the threshold and baseline starting point of trust on the internet but that is only so regarding using their infrastructure because they did raise that bar, and sometimes the pervasive hands of these superpowers are so ubiquitous that it seems there is more trust on the internet but actually only more trust relative to how these entities were able to capture the trust of millions thus negating the levels of trust soley to where their hands lay, which is coincidentally or seemingly everywhere on the web. These giants have gained so much user trust they have molded the very framework for which people perceive the internet itself irregardless of the mass of untapped, unwalked, and undiscovered territory throughout the world wide web they will probably not witness in their lifetimes.

So the baseline level of trust within the structures that are ubiquitous online have increased but yet the overall sentiment of trust inherently existent within the fabric of the internet itself has not changed, only morphed into a sort of reflection of perceived homeostasis or higher levels of baseline trust but yet the opposite is true. The base foundational point of how the level of trust has seemingly increased is based on the inherent ethics promulgated within these superpowers propaganda campaigns to facilitate people to seek knowledge and understanding. This almost ubiqitously altruistic predesigned plan for 'those that use the internet' has created the foundation from which people commonly and similarly seek out more information and more knowledge utilizing the systems of power and capability that these powers present, thus creating a vacuum effect where everyone is united or more comfortable with each other because of their increased knowledge as a result of coexisting within the landscape altogether, seemingly naturally compelled to explore greater realms of knowledge intellect and history than ever humanly possible in the history of mankind. So this common thread coupled with the overarching framework that the average person is used to navigating as well as the propagated and subtly implied 'purpose' enveloping all user navigation within this framework creates the illusion, feeling, or perception that people trust each other more or should trust each other more than ever perhaps even more so online than in real life because of the inherent "safety protections" involved with remote to remote communication, which seemingly eliminate many of the natural risks involved with real physicality, but yet do not solve the problems of trust inherent within such paradigms where little precedent is established, little interaction takes place, and little communication can take place except by way of a group deliberately pooling together their expressions and communications through the written word as point of individual necessity existing within the framework of the group so as to cumulatively and togetherly establish that cross network of trust deliberately over time, to eventually fill the void of that which is so dearly missing from the internet and thus our human interaction, confidence, connection, and trust within each other so that we can pull together and make it through this EARTH TEST. ❤

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Day 308 - The Lies of Labor

What is the lies of labor? What does that mean? What does that imply? What does this entail? The lies of labor entails a lie that we are inundated with to the point of unquestioning acceptance as the gospel truth as if it is common sense even when the truth still remains intact behind the veil forevermore. It implies a vast swath of deception hovering over something that we all experience, come in contact with, and is in some way or another part of everybody's lives. It means that a lie does exist within this point that pervades each persons reality and that when the essence of this lie is veiled as the truth and then accepted as the truth - the essence of that which pervades our reality is skewed in a way that does not reflect the true nature and actuality of its existence.

What does this have to do with labor? What is the big lie that pervades this topic of labor? The lie is that one persons labor or form of labor could ever be more valuable or worth more than another's to the extent that a large discrepancy could exist between each's rewards. This discrepancy is so artfully justified to the extent that many or most could come to accept as truth even when a simple common sense analysis would effortlessly debunk its validity.

Look at with the example of a car. How can you quantify the value of a car part relative to other car parts whenever the exclusion of any one of them would compromise the complete integrity of the car within the context the problem it is supposed to solve? You simply can't. Without each the system does not function to its purpose. How is this example any different from lets say the Mcdonalds production system? Or the value of each Walmart employee? Its not at all. Within business systems , these systems are designed to work together to accomplish a common goal.

This is not only NOT the TRUTH but a complete distortion of how everyone relates to each other in terms of the actual reality of the value being exchanged when system components come together to form a vehicle for which a problem can be solved. The effects that this distortion, deception, and outright blatant lie accepted as real has on our base perception and formulation for what is reality and what is not is extensive - wherein eventually after the lie becomes a basic component in the fabric of how we perceive reality - we no longer are able to see the simplistic reality and truth within all aspects of reality. As if the lie started as a seed and grew into a tree and then multiplied itself to where almost every inch of reality becomes coated or tainted with this 'original sin'  or 'deception' so much so that the individual's ability to discern 'what is real' and 'what is not real' becomes severely compromised on a level so deep that it becomes a self - functioning self- fulfilling disease of sorts that riddles all within a taint derived from the original - and thus functioning to create more of the same - pervading more and more of what is actually real - with what is fallacy.

So the consequences extend far beyond just an observable discrepancy in reward between two people's labor. Its set a precedent for believing and seeing that which is not real as real, ultimately molding and framing human awareness and human consciousness into a virtual reflection of that which is real - believing the reflection to be reality.

Why would such a discrepancy manifests itself in reality when it does not reflect the nature of reality or the simple principles that envelop reality - yet exists within the framework of human consciousness and exchange? Individuals who declare and decide that this discrepancy is justified in reality are only doing so out of self interest for if such a discrepancy should exist - the potential for one to benefit from it are better. This is a result of human greed and human evil evidenced by the willingness to benefit at the expense of another even while such expense is completely unnecessary and not actually reflective of the true essence of nature. 

So in short if you still beLIEve that one persons labor is more valuable than another when it comes to the essence or difficulty involved within that labor you are sadly mistaken as evidenced by the car example above. The only true discrepancy that exists is the level of productivity that any individual can sustain and maintain over an extended period of time. That is the only real discrepancy between two peoples labor. The nature of that labor and or the difficulty or skill needed to perform does not form a real basis for justifying a wide discrepancy in pay between two peoples labor.

Day 306 -

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of peeking inside of my own mind, looking at it, observing it, and forgiving it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of dping something different than what ive been doing.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of going someplace different.

Day 305 - Andrew Yang Iowa Caucus Media Blackout

Iowa prepares for caucus voting

This mainstream media blackout of Andrew Yang is reprehensible and disgusting. Since he's the only one who can beat Trump with Bernie and Warren the only other marginally likely contenders, these media outlets obviously want Donald Trump to be elected. The question is why? As long as Trump is re-elected these "liberal" media outlets get to run countless negative stories on how bad of a person Trump is with endless fake indictments, baseless allegations, and relentless smearing of his character...which all together gets these outlets a whole lot of attention and thus makes them a whole lot of money. 4 years of this bias bull..really? Remember how Obama's presidency was like the golden age for Fox News? Same story, just reversed. Remember how Bush's presidency was also the same for the liberal outlets? Yeah its all about the money to these people. Thats because they have no faith in the system anyways because it is broken and they are right, so they just side with the money maker. But i expect that at least when a candidate of actual substance is putting himself on the line merely out of good conscience rather than just power and fame(like most are) for these outlets to give at least fair and decent coverage. The fact that there has been a blackout of Yang on these predomiant outlets shows you 1 thing: He's the only one who can beat Trump. I mean they are so good at getting people to follow their own fears...Warren and Bernie might have a good shot but they are just decades behind in ideas, brains, and aptitude that its like ..how could you possibly choose them over Yang? Obviously for no other reason than your impulse to side with the candidate thats 'most likely' to be nominated rather than whos the actual best. The real point is youre going with people the media wants you too so that Trump will beat them...its just that simple.

Day 304 - What the System Expects Yet Has Produced For Millenia

How can the system demand people to be fully responsible for themselves and their dependants whenever the system is not based in equality (which is essentially what the system is demanding from each person, full responsibility=equality right?)?

Is that not hypocritical by design?

Isn't that similar to exactly how we raise our kids in this system, expecting perfection, whenever we dont even know the mechanics behind that and how to facillitate that within our children practically physically? Isnt that like handing someone a bike that has never ridden before, and once they fall persecuting them or punishing them with fines and penalties after? Isnt that ludicrous? Doesnt that sound ludicrous? Doesnt it seem like that that is exactly what we are doing to our children as a society as a whole?

That is exactly what we are doing as a society as a whole to each other and specifically our offspring. Where we dont give each other the tools and resources to even come close to what we are expecting of each other but yet we still continuously expect different results despite the evidence over the past couple thousand years that our efforts are falling short and thus what we are doing is not working.

We would recognize this falling short collectively on a quantum physical  level simultaneously if we were to be completely honest with ourselves. Now of course we are not being completely honest with ourselves nor have we ever been at any point in our history for any substantial stretch of time because if we had been, then we would have attempted to change something or at least tried to figure out substantially why our efforts are continuously falling short.

But we havent and instead we have inevitably been individually and collectively lying to ourselves, as that is the only way we could have continued down the same path, without that quantum physical awareness acknowledgement that we dont know how the mechanics of creating perfection actually operate and thus therefore are not even capable of such an endeavor much less have achieved any smidge of it except in a few rare isolated cases.

Doesnt that sound a little crazy? We dont even know how to create perfection in ourselves but yet we are expecting that out of each other and our children? Isnt that ridiculous?

Now of course our collective excuses have been that we 'have tried', wechave 'achieved something at least', and some or many may actually whole heartedly believe that 'we did it, we are perfect, and our children will be too'. But these are obviously lies we have been coming up with because the truth has been so scary for most and the pervading of fear so extensive that its easier to go along with lies whenever your or your family's survival is at stake and the possibility of endless suffering and torture for not going along is quite poignant as well as frequent. This has been especially the case for those that hold the keys to the kingdom(females) and are the self annointed  dictators of the system. And they have gone along with these lies mostly out of fear of the truth and facing that extensively within and without in ones life, which is primarily based in suppression of ones power and ability and most importantly ones responsibility. As well as the physical dimensions of inferiority or strength as opposed to men when it comes to dominance and authority wherein the woman has been continuously subjected to abuse from men and thus has learned to suppress out of necessity. This suppression of the keyholders to heaven on earth is the single most crucial element behind the continuation of lies instead of self honesty.

Through accepting and allowing all of the fear preprogrammed by our parent's ignorances of how perfection actually is created, we come to embody their ignorances in many dimensional forms and will come to mimic them almost identically if there is not some great striving for change and the truth, as well as the execution of solutions towards the dynamics at play and thus will take form in their likeness in every way , thus repeating the whole cycle over again once then they procreate as well, teaching their kids almost the exact same thing as well. Through this dishonesty the only things that have truly developed and grown are the fruits of our labors ie. Technology but yet our nature has not.

Systematically the tenants of the system experienced, followed, and exercised internally within ones mind body physical existence is manifested externally as the boundaries and laws that we set in place and abide by. Its as if we are placed in shackles, walk through existence in them, and then write our way into our own prison as if we were making sure we never got out of those shackles by way of the laws thatbwe write, not actually knowing that that is what we were doing.

Now somebody did come and explained to us how this all works, and we based almost all of our efforts to manifest this persons understanding into our society as our own, on this somebody's teachings. But we didnt actually get the tools we needed from him. But eventually we could get the tools we needed from his words and his disciples words after they were absorbed so closely for hundreds of years and thus physically quantumly integrated into the mind body existence of the human being over time. What happened was that it became such a widely known and used reference for everything in ones life, through the physical integration of these words through out loud repetition by prayer and the acceptance of the sermons preached every sunday in churches across the world without question or rebuttals, and the ruthless  promulgation of these words across national, racial, and gender boundaries. This led to its being physically integrated into the mind and body's of all human beings on earth to varying degrees regarding their conscious awareness of it but equal degrees of their subconcious and unconscious submission to its authority.

Once that integration had been complete, then the ability to manipulate this mind body quantum physical integration in order to unlock the 'keys to the kingdom' for real became possible by way of using the body of work for which all the prayers and sermons were based on as a map instead of as just a manual wherein the predisposition towards the latter rather than the former was mostly predominantly taught and advocated everywhere. Which is simply a predisposition based in fear, but after all, in many cases their submission was a matter of their survival, hence the fear aspect of it.

So many years after the integration of this paradigm had been completed, another man came along who sought for the 'keys to the kingdom' with an inkling of self honesty left enough to questions his beliefs and how society runs.

By way of stepping back from ones paradigm through extensive study and investigation into everything one could get their hands on as far as the 'supernatural' 'spiritual' and 'esoteric', Bernard Poolman for example was able to at least realise that, regardless of his personal adherance or disregard of the paradigm he existed within, he was still subject to that paradigm on a quantum physical level that he could not physically disregard. He knew that something was not quite right considering the continued diseases of thevhuman condition mentally, emotionally, and physically despite the dissemeniation of 'the word of god' all across the world.

He read through the publications of many works that attempt to make sense of the 'spirit' by other means than the 'status quo' of 'that which is holy' paradigm or even ones that even seem to persuade that 'spirtuality is the answer' as if anything outside the mundane goings of everyday within the system is somehow the 'real truth' and thus they can just choose to worship that without being subject to the majority view of 'the truth' and ' where its found'.

So Bernard Poolman or BP for short investigated all of these things extensively to the point of coming to the awareness that the mechanics involved within the paradigm can be used to achieve the goal the paradigm is so fervently seeking for, albeit an unconventional method and mostly if not completely unknown in the context of which he discovered it and therefore its real significance or quantum physical effects unknown within this context and never experienced before.

So when he discovered the power of forgiveness through reading and integrating all kinds of teachings and insights from those who sought to look beyond the horizon of the predominant paradigm of the system, he came upon a work called A Course in Miracles i believe that impacted him as far as discovering and practicing the power of forgiveness. So through his exploration of other works outside the mainstream of religious text yet seeking to understand the nature of the spirit world, god, and heaven etc. He came across this book(s) A Course in Miracles which iterated to him the power of forgiveness in a motivating way. He practiced this with some effect which gave him a clue that forgiveness was pretty damn important to getting to the kingdom. After all, all the worshippers 'want to go to heaven' and they supposedly will if they 'ask God to forgive them for their sins' or 'accept Jesus Christ as thou lord and savior because he died for your sins' thus a form of forgiveness by virtue of your confidence in another who 'has forgiven all already'.

Thus he finds that forgiveness is one of the keys to entering the kindgom as laid out by the predominant quantum physical consciousness paradigm.

He was extremely thorough in everything he did, which was the singular tenant that he would need to discover the mysteries of reality and thus find the keys to the kingdom. So this point of being able to take everything he did to the utmost of its potential and to his potential within it allowed him to discover this, thus revealing reality as a constant, and the 'world' to be 'in' reality but not 'of' reality, thus the paradigm which he subscribed to fervently in stages and became aware of its hold onto the physical in time, became apparent to him to be simply a circumstance of existence rather than the bare bones of it.

Thus he realised that the paradigm is simply a circumstance and given that circumstances can change, then he could change the 'paradigm' and thus change the 'world'. Or better yet he could utilize a better understanding of the paradigm to change his participation within it, creating and facillitating the perfection, expression, and change that he seeked.. Through changing how he would participate within the paradigm he was able to change himself within and without to that which everybody has been seeking and expecting from one another but never knew how to do or attain or pass along, and he was able to do this through understanding and manipulating the mechanics or 'rules' of the paradigm to actually create change.

So he learned that if he took this power of forgiveness as illustrated in the these works as himself, that he could act as god within the capacity of being able to pardon himself for that which he has sinned and continues to sin against. He learns then it actually works and begins to start to clean out his mind body's infestation with proccupations, temptations, desires, bad tendencies, bad habits, nasty thoughts, low self esteem, low self authority, and low levels of self responsibility which plagued him I assume as they have plagued us all to varying degrees at one point or another.

This profound discovery would set the stage for learning how the mind actually works and the relationship between the mind and body. Because through discovering self forgiveness and thus having the ability to delete the unnecessary and undesirable contents of his mind and then physically integrate this change into his reality which actually made a difference within him and those around him, the exposition of the system behind all of these precursors to sin would commence as we now had the keys to manipulating, changing, deleting, or rewriting the contents of one's mind.

Of which became apparent as the culprit behind all the sins of man over generations and thus needed to be understood for man to stop sinning for good and stop passing down those sins to successive generations out of figurative  blindness and actual ignorance.

In my next blog I will explore upon the nature of the original point that started this blog and expound upon that by referencing the system as the physical instistutions of this world and most importantly the money system as clear examples of how the system demands full responsibility from every individual, yet does not take full responsibility for the inequities that it promotes and promulgates that inhibit each individual from being able to achieve what it demands and articulate the hypocrisy that exemplifies and then present viable solutions to change this dynamic towards optimising full responsibility on both sides of the aisle so that there can be real accountavility eventually, optimally more weight going on the govt and institutions which have more power rather than as it currently is more so on the individual which doesnt receive all the necessary support it needs to fulfill its end of the bargain....

Day 301

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the thought 'i cant do anything about my situation'.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of my landlord and my partner's relationship with each other.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of my demise.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of my partners intentions with me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the idea that i have to submit to the system in some way in order to survive.

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed myself to suppress and repress my emotions and feelings so much so that i am inundated with itching on various parts of my body to the extent that this itch becomes so powerful that i have to scratch at all costs.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use drugs to support my own ego instead of using them in moments to support myself in self honesty as needed.

Day 300 - Elon Musk Reiterates Upcoming Need for UBI

https://www.businessinsider.com/elon-musk-universal-basic-income-2017-2

I think one of the sad things about this election is how there can be such a candidate that makes so much sense and he articulates his point of view so well and so convincingly that people still dont get it and just write it off with a predominant excuse that one might take as a reason to not vote for him. I mean all of the reasons to vote for him are all there. Is he perfect? I wouldnt say that but he is a hell of a lot better than anyone running by a longshot. Is what he is proposing going to solve all of our problems all at once? No. But it will lay the foundation for the kind of economic and political dynamics we will need going into 2030 and beyond. This is simply because our society is growing and transforming faster than it ever has. Think about how A.I.'s ability to 'double its computational power' faster all the time, while the computational power of all the worlds computers doubles only every year on schedule? Are we prepared for the onset of rapid changes caused by advancements in technology and artificial intelligence?

I dont think we are even close. Yang said himself that he is runing for president because he doesnt want to wait too long for a similiar candidate to finally run and finally win because by then it might just be too late or at least long overdue while much of the catastrophes that could ensue could have been prevented had we elected him or someone of the like sooner.

Think about it...

Day 299

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to have faith and believe that And re w yang will win the presidential election.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to spread awareness of Andrews Yangs policy proposals along with the math and data that backs them up.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see that regardless of the mainstream medias treatment of yang as far aa polling and debate appearances and debate talk time that Andrew Yang is indisputably the person best fit for president of the United States by a long shot.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see,realise, and understand that Andrew Yang is the only presidential candidate that is presenting real solutions that can actually be done where common sense and research shows that they will work.

Day 298

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of starting over and starting anew.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of facing the challenges before me head on.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of being self honest.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of taking action regardless of it being wrong or right.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of doing the wrong thing.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of makong mistakes.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the projection of the fear of failing within and through imagining getting a new job.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of calling people and talking to them on the phone.

I commit myself to take action that is what is best for all.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear doing what is best for all and living that to my utmost potential.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear that what im doing and participating in not actually what is best for all.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be uncertain about every little thing fearing the outflows from each thing and within that believing that im damned if i do and damned if i dont.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of asking my dad for help with money and fear that he will think less of me if i do or that i only call whenever i want money.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of speaking to my dad on the phone worrying that our conversation wont be good if i feel like i have to talk to him when i dont feel like or dont want to.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate on calling my dad because of feeling like i need to not take his help and that im too old to ask for his help and take his help.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that others will judge me if i am being honest with myself in everything i do with them or just being honest with myself in general and within that fearing that the people around me are constantly looking upon me critically and pass judgment.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see that to get past my fear i have to forgive myself and apply myself to change by facing it and or doing it to no longer fear it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of doing something out of some sort of reprisal or undesirable repercussion from doing such things.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be critical and judge others in my life and in my environment instead of facing that judgment within myself inwardly through writing, self forgiveness, introspection, and self forgiveness, and then applying myself in that context to change.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see realise and understand that by judging and being critical of others around me then they will return the favor and judge me within the same context or measure as the bible states.

Day 297 - The Manifestation of Equality

US figures On Iran Air Strike

An interesting note about propaganda. In this article the leaders whose commentary on the issue that condones this extreme act of military aggression are presented first whereas the ones that do not are last. This is a subtle bias where no particular opinion is being expressed explicity one way or the other by the author but is rather expressed through the order  of which the author presents the most prominent american political figures opinions on the subject rather than his own thus giving the illusion of journalistic impartiality. This is indicative of a rigged system where a hidden agenda is being carried out whereas the figures that support this agenda will be the 'frontrunners' and those that do not will be 'last'. This is because the orchestrators of the media streams are impartial to the 'rule' that 'self interest trumps all' wherein wherever it serves them, theirs, and their friends it is the honest gospel in their eyes. Thus the streams are manipulated in very specific ways to support these ends. Thus the majority are compelled to agree with what is presented out of fear of being casted out from the herd wherein the herd is honestly so fearful that they will manipulate each other to no end in order for each other to submit to the honest views of a minority few however dishonest it is for the majority to accept such views if they were to be following the rules that the minority follow as their gospel. This is simply because the majority do not have such convictions as the minority do because to have them would be evil. However for the majority to align their self interest collectively together wherein each individuals expression of their own self interest becomes an expression of eachs self interest collectively in equality as what is best for all then the expression of the collective becomes the one by one accumulation of what is best for all manifested. However we do not have that at all. We have a few minorities interest being collectively adhered to one by one and that being lived in reality. Thus the expression of one becomes the expression of all. But this is changing and has already been reversed completely, however we are in the stages of transitioning to its manifestation into reality which is a one by one process breath by breath. All it takes is one to stand up for all of the world to stand up. However for eons of time those that were capable of this were ostracized and eliminated so that their expression would not have a final say in everyone elses. This was all a design implemented and conducted through the mind consciousness system wherein all were trapped within their submission to their minds rather than each other as equals and therefore the final say as the collective expression became inequality. However the seed and essence of life as equality could not be thrown out as this was the only thing that was real in reality. Thus the mind could be programmed in specific ways to deceive the observers into believing that their observation of the mind was real however their life essence still always remained and could not destroyed but only suppressed.

Day 295

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to open up myself to others in my environment.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to shy away from new friendships and relationships.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear the unknown of undiscovered new friendships and relarionships.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the resistance to getting up and going to work everyday.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear and resistance to getting up everyday and finding some way to be productive making small strides towards a particular goal.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of ending an abusive relationship.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i have to put up with an abusive relationship in order to have my physical and emotional desires of sex and loneliness resolved.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear stopping abusing myself others around me and allowing others to abuse me.

I forgive myaelf that i have accepted and alowed others to abuse and believe that i deserve it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the energy that is existent within an abusive relationship to an extent where i become numb to its effects and feel that is normal.

Day 296

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to have faith and believe that And re w yang will win the presidential election.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to spread awareness of Andrews Yangs policy proposals along with the math and data that backs them up.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see that regardless of the mainstream medias treatment of yang as far aa polling and debate appearances and debate talk time that Andrew Yang is indisputably the person best fit for president of the United States by a long shot.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see,realise, and understand that Andrew Yang is the only presidential candidate that is presenting real solutions that can actually be done where common sense and research shows that they will work.