Thursday, January 12, 2017

Day 135 "The Raging Pussy"

So when I was a child my dad used to tell me about sex, women, and all those sorts of things. He would frequently refer to women within the phrase "the raging pussy" and he would describe the "raging pussy" as an ailment or condition all women must go through and deal with on a monthly basis. Now in my experience as a young man and my own due-diligence and research as to what makes a woman tick I have started to see a little bit about what he was actually talking about. He referred to it as a time once a month around menstruation that women go through. Now within my own experience and research as to 'what are the times that women are most fertile - and when do women suddenly, unexpectedly give me attention' I found that women were much more 'frisky' if you will around the time of month where the moon is more full. So I basically deduced from knowledge and information that if the 'moon' represented 'feminine energy' and along with the folklore of 'wolves being more active on a full moon' then the full moon was somehow significant with regards to women and this 'feminine energy'. Now what is the grand purpose of all organisms is to 'orgasm'. And generally its 'common sense' that 'sex' is 'a big deal' to people. So taking into account that the moon represents 'feminine energy' and 'sex is whats on people's minds' and physiologically women go through a period 'once a month' where they 'menstruate' and are perhaps 'more fertile' in the period leading up to the menstruation then the moon has 'something to do with female sexual activity and/or breeding/copulating'. So common sense would deduce that if the full moon has any significance with regards to female reproduction then it would denote a common sensical deduction that the full moon signifies heightened sexual activity and/or reproduction.

So I took that information and I started observing. But mostly I wanted to figure out 'why are women looking at me now and one month ago or two weeks ago I couldn't get one to be interested in me to save my life'. So I took my theory about the full moon, heightened sexual activity, promiscuity, and/or reproduction/menstruation to the test by observing and correlating women behavior with the onset or the eve of full moons. I found that I was basically pretty spot on. Women behave differently and much more favorably to random men and/or 'attractive men' (such as me) during the period in and around the full moon. And what do all heterosexual women have in common - they don't have an interest in 'making friends' with men - I mean thats why getting 'friend zoned' - is perceived as a negative thing in all relationships between men and women because it denotes that 'one is not interested in fucking the other' - and since men are usually much more despotic and desperate when it comes to sexuality - the 'friend zone' is usually passed on to the man. So the reasoning behind mentioning the point about 'friends' is that if a woman suddenly is giving you attention - there is no other agenda behind that attention but to copulate - if its for 'friends' then it yields some sort of agenda of 'maybe down the line we will be fucking' or 'maybe down the line we will have a relationship and be fucking' and/or 'maybe if we are friends first then our relationship of fucking will be more successful and/or lead to marriage'.

Of course marriage and children being the ultimate goal with what the woman sees or perceives to be 'a fit partner in life'. Obviously within that genes play a significant role but also even more importantly is  the man's ability to make money - and/or 'how much money he already has'. That's simply because of our agreement as human beings of 'we use money to do everything' and 'the more money you have - the more abilities you have to do things - and the more security you have - yielding 'surplus money' meaning 'surplus security' which translates for a woman into 'low stress' - and 'kids are well taken care of' .

Now as a man I have to admit that for a good long time and somewhat still but significantly less now than just two years ago - I resented women for this whole dynamic not realizing that women are simply operating within the current 'paradigm' - not necessarily trying to change 'the paradigm' because simply 'theres no time to do that' - 'we must fornicate, copulate, marry, and secure our children's future' . 'There's no time to change the paradigm'. 'Changing the paradigm' would 'changing our nature' and within 'changing our nature' then 'who would we be?'. And within 'changing the paradigm' we would be 'rebelling against our own self-interest' which could mean resorting to despotic things and acts of desperation just to have some sort of self worth - essentially 'going against our own happiness and well being simply because we don't like who we are and/or the entire paradigm in which we exist'. So essentially 'theres no time for that' and 'we would be stupid to go against our own programming' because if you were to do so 'then you would be cast out - meaningless, worthless, and basically a 'whore' to passing men'. So within this and from the man's perspective there is the complete understanding that all women are essentially 'prostitutes' if and when they choose a man on anything to do with having money or the abilities to make more money and/or connections with people that could lead to a higher income. That is self-explanatory. But yet the 'problem' being the 'agreements' between people that one must accumulate money in order to live and exist in this world. That being the 'agreement' with the most significance and impact and not necessarily 'woman's choice of man based on money' because according to the worldwide agreement between people 'money is the most important thing in the world as far as to do with anything to do with functioning and living in this world system'.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to 'hate' women and resent women for choosing men based on how much money they have.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate and resent women for only considering men and a 'future' with a man based on his abilities to make money and/or how much money he already has.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to how females perceive me as a potential mate according to how much money I already have.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define women according to and as prostitutes as I know that if I had alot of money - the amount of women that would be attracted to me would plentiful and I would basically 'choose' who I would marry according to my own standards of what I wanted in a female.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear that if I do not marry the woman thats been in my life the longest then I will not be deemed worthy or acceptable to women ever again.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the thought 'women are basically naturally just prostitutes as the status and level of money is the most significant bearing on a woman's choice of a man'. 

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