Day 186 - 21 DAY Committment To Self-Change, Self-Correction, and Self-Application

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to do drugs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel weak and powerless when it comes to drugs and the continuous pattern of doing drugs based on the intial impulse and/or sudden arisen desire. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the sudden arisen desire to take drugs for a pick me up or even to froget, suppress, or escape from issues in my life due to a lack of self-committment, will, and fortitude to dedicate my life to self-correction, self-change through self-forgiveness and self-commitments. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of doing the wrong thing or making the wrong decision. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of losing my life and the comfort that comes with it. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of losing the creature comforts that I have in my life and have accrued. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of getting fired from my job by my manager because of the potential or possibility that I am not good enough to work at my job for an extended period of time. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear that my coworkers will or do resent me because I reported their abuse to management. 

I commit myself to create my life and direct all of my relationships to what is best for all. 

I commit myself to write self-forgiveness and self-committments daily for 21 days from this point forward of this writing to see and realize the benefits and the positives of doing so while also transferring my self-forgiveness and self-committment statements to my blog to see the effects and benefits of posting this particular material online to upload my change to the unconscious mind and see how I change as a result. 

I committ myself to the process of self-change through writing self-forgiveness and self-committments to see how I live and embody the words of self-correction as living words in self-expression. 

I commit myself to see how I can change trhough dedicating my life to self-application, self-change, and self-correction through writing, speaking, and living self-forgiveness,, self-commitment statements, self application in real time in my immediate reality, uploading these documents online for all to see, learn, and share from. 

I commit myself to investigate the avenues and means for stopping using drugs - specifically crack cocaine and cocaine hcl. 

I commit myself to stop using crack cocaine. 

I commit myself to investigate and disect desires and/or direct them immediately through speaking or writing and speaking self-forgiveness and self-committment statements such as "when and as the desire to smoke crack rises up within me, I breathe, and I immediately tackle the desire and/or impulse through writing or speaking out loud self-forgiveness and self-committments and/or self-corrective statements to avoid and/or prevent the eventual/potential outflow of acting on the desire and using the substance whenever I have already committed myself to stop.