Day 283 - The Addict In Gambling

Lately mostly as a sort of byproduct for the tendencies, dispositions, starting point, past history, and secret mind motivations of my intimate partner who i sleep with every night and have done so for the past 2 years, i have been influenced by these components that go into who she is and how she lives her life. Whether out of necessity by feeling obligated, by boredom, or sheer apathy i have delved into some of the areas which represent components of her personality which i would have previously staved away from in good conscience as well as even judged extensively as a generally repulsive and repugnant venture to partake in considering all of our other options availavle,  one of these cases being unapologetic compulsive gambling.

The most interesting thing i have found within this tendency towards gambling is quite the opposite of what i exactly expected, pictured in my mind, and/or sort of congregated a whole myriad of thought processes surrounding the entire subject which i then labeled in my mind as 'thats gambling' before actually having any substantial experiwnce with the actual physical activity. Nothing that i had conjured in my mind as forms of knowledge and viewpoints towards the subject was actually anything close to a deeper physical awareness of what the gambling addict is actually doing and or the casual gambler is doing.

What i found is that gambling is a 'rush' its an adrenaline high, its a 'thrill'. Thats whats really going on physically within the gambler is just like other adrenaline seeking activities, however this one just happens to be 'playing with your lifeline' so to speak, not to discredit how almost all adrenaline seeking activities in some form or another are 'playing with their lifelines' in some way or another. Its the encounter of danger while simultaneously moving forward with the prospect of prospering in the face it that is so appealing and 'addicting'.

How i came to realize this clearly was whenever i had some bonus money left over in my online casino account. I figured i could potentially take these miniscule bonus funds and turn it into something big which could finance my poker education/playing and help me and my partner out financially in the mean time. The prospect of that potentially happening as a real verifiable possibility by all accounts coupled with the confidence in the idea that i can help determine the outcome in my favor in efforts to tip the scales of 50/50 towards my half, gave the journey such zest and actually an air of optimism or self confidence in myself just by virtue of trying against the odds while the possibility of failing being quite high and that possibility of failing having severe consequences to my mental, emotional, physical, and financial well being overall as the power of money or the lack thereof can be the most powerful detriment to the minds of men, bringing the kings of kongs of men to their knees in efforts to seek retribution for their 'sinfulness'. Its that context of gambling that the 'addict' is really 'addicted' to because the dynamics within the mental emotional psyche are so complex yet so real and consequential that it almost befits the 'addict' as the effort being of some sort of version of self testing to see what they are really made of...and if they lose can they get through the torment and self agony and misery that awaits them...

But back to my experience so i figured i would dabble with these bonus funds and what i found was that in some instances i thought i had figured a method to tip the weight of the scales in my favor, which coincided with going on a winning streak of sorts. And within this winning streak and each successive submission of my bets to the table for another opportunity to 'make it big' within the realization that the small incremental wins precede the massive quantum leaps and that everything counts and there is that chance of a quantum leap after each incremental win, as i pressed on and continued my submissions i noticed a very poignant change in my body chemistry or state. My heart began to pound and my breath became sort of nonexistent where i would find myself letting out deep breaths like the capture of ones attention in a horror film stumbling for some balance and stability in the midst of the pulsating drum of the urge or 'need' to 'press forward' and keep submitting in order to defy the odds.

Day 282 Andrew Yang and the Freedom Dividend

What Andrew Yang is proposing as a means to a Universal Basic Income not only makes sense logistically now but also takes into account the vast swath of change that could take place in our economy in the near future considering the doubling effect that technology is experiencing. This is why what he has been talking about is not only genius but probably the most revolutionary idea that has come forth to the mainstream considering the context of which it has come forth and the landscape of which it has come forth both in real terms and projected terms considering the landscape of where we've been, where we are, and where we are likely going. His "freedom dividend" proposal makes so much sense that its like a no brainer home run that almost everyone can get behind. The tech companies can be heralded to god like status which boosts their egos as well as giving their work actual real verifable relevance towards the social well being of all. The corporations and the fat cats can sell more stuff because all this from the tech industry will be directly given to the hands of people that already buy their stuff or maybe want to buy their stuff. And the average american would be called an idiot by their peers to not to accept an extra $1,000 per month for free if their boss handed it to them. And as a compounding result over time for those which this $1,000 is a conplete game changer in their lives and not only can they end up potentially saving where it was impossible, it might even boost them to make advances in their career and social circles that otherwise would not have happened thus skyrocketing them to making more money and saving more than they ever dreamed of faster than they ever dreamed of where they then may go on to do big and meaningful things that was either impossible before, seemed impossible before, and/or was an elusive pipe dream that seemed to pass them by as they scoundreled on the ground day in and day scraping by at their jobs with little leftover.

Also this addresses a fundamental principle between the relationship between technology and human beings and especially most importantly laying the foundation for a mutually beneficial relationship between more advanced AI that will develop in the future and us human beings. This will create a positive feedback loop between the humans not only programming of these AI as well the how the humans think about their programming of them and more importantly the inherent response to that programming which will become important whenever AI's become so sophisticated that humans may have a hard time distinguishing them from real people. This happens as follows: the AI's are programmed to do work that serves to provide for their fellow humans which makes them feel good, humans show grattitude for this work because it is not for me or you in isolation per se nor just the big wigs that own that robot that is serving us, their work is for the common welfare of all which makes them 'happy' because they see that we are 'happy' to see them. In this way they are avle to learn their most crushing deficit of which theu are aware of which is feel, show, and express grattitude and empathy.

This sort of basic underlying nuanced foundational architecture of AI's programming vice versa the humans programming in relation to them and the vortex of exchange in between them in the process and over time is extremely subtle yet critically important whenever we are essentially bringing alongside us a fully capable and dynamic species that could decide to use us to accomplish their means as opposed to the means of what is best for all, not just humans, and not just themselves. This positive feedback loop allows for a building of a relationship that is beneficial for all as that relationship is being developed in its early stages and throughout its life span. This is critical to get right in the beginning as the two most dangerous things to either an AI or a human being is either themselves or each other. It is very important that that relationship gets off to a good start so that both in unison can realize their potential in working together for the greater good of all and not just themselves. With this positive feedback loop humans will be much more emotionally attached to AI rather than physically which will allow the AI to explore and delve into that side of the human as well reflectively reaching some of that within themselves through that exposure and interaction. Laying a foundation that is either with non aligned incentives or worse a large barrier from the onset based on a negative or abusive past could completely inhibit the two being able to reach these realms of communication which could spell disaster for both our survivals. This intimate exchange between AI and human counterparts will be vital in their development in reaching a point of relatability which will facilitate relationships between AI and humans where they can show each other and help one another while understanding that their incentives align towards the greater good of all rather than just what is best for themselves in isolated self interest based on a negative past, and laying a solid foundation that is mathematically
Sound to produce a win win that aligns to both parties incentives wherein even those incentives are aligned and an understanding that each has their own drawbacks or weaknesses so to speak but that that they are here to support one another and grow together in this journey we call life.

This is able to be accomplished through this positive feedback loop between "AI" or "Robots" connecting to in the humans minds, "helping me put food on the table" or "changed all of our lives for the better" and "is apart of the greater good for all" or "is what is best for all". So in this process the human being will also be taken on a journey of self discovery of understanding what is best for all is what is best for them and vice versa because once the scarcity mindset has been alleviated or eradicated with the help of technology, robots, and AI through the form of a freedom Dividend that they will collectively help to provide, then the human will start to think a little differently and their incentives will still align to their self preservation to an extent but it wont be 'all they exist as' as they do currently. Perhaps showing and feeling grattitude will be the AI's strong suit and will help the humans develop this more within themselves.

Day 281 Darwinism Means We Decide

Darwinism Means We Decide

Money is the most important thing in the world but its not the end all be all of everything in the world. Its simply a tool. Given to all unconditionally makes more sense than every individual chasing after the same goal in isolation, separation, and ruthless competition with one another. Can the darwinians get past the idea that were set in stone and that theres nothing we can do about it! Darwinians of all should at least acknowledge the fact that since we are the most advanced species with regards to not only technical abilities and also communication that this would give us as a species the ability to decide and build 'how the world works' and 'how things are going to be' rather than sitting back in complacency and laziness thinking that we are not able to change the current paradigm we live under while our position in the hierarchy is clearly that of 'god' if you will or the decider of how things are going to be? This is the problem with the belief in higher powers because this excuses the most dominant species on earth from taking responsibility for what happens on earth because its 'up to god'. Hah! Can you see the fallacy? I mean dont get me wrong there is a god and he is very real but his or her interventions will be sparse and selective. Its mainly up to you and us..after all thats what Darwinism is telling us anyway....isnt it? :)