When I was a young child around 5-6 years old I was instilled with the programming that women made the moves when it comes to sexuality. The reason this happened is because my cousin 'made all the moves' sexually speaking or was the original initiator of any sexuality between us from the beginning. So therefore I have the programming that women are supposed to come to me. The dire result of this programming is almost never meeting a woman that is actually interested in me because typically in society men do the initiating in any discourse or dialogue that may lead to sex. I was programmed the exact opposite of how the majority of society operates. This is a conundrum for obvious reasons. There are not that many women with equally similar programming where they go after the man they are interested in or attracted to.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women are supposed to come to me because of what happened in my childhood in how my cousin came to me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women are the initiators of sexual cues of attraction.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women are the initiators of any sexuality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women are the vain of existence.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women are always just spiting me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women are in a constant state of war with me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women hate and despise me and rather are looking for a badass than someone who actually is gentle, caring, and sympathetic.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women exist in a constant state of spite towards good men.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women are evil.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that good women will not be interested in sex with me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that good women won't ever initiate contact with me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that I will never be able to go after a good looking woman.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of speaking to a good looking woman.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women are supposed to come to me because of what happened in my childhood in how my cousin came to me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women are the initiators of sexual cues of attraction.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women are the initiators of any sexuality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women are the vain of existence.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women are always just spiting me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women are in a constant state of war with me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women hate and despise me and rather are looking for a badass than someone who actually is gentle, caring, and sympathetic.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women exist in a constant state of spite towards good men.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that women are evil.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that good women will not be interested in sex with me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that good women won't ever initiate contact with me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that I will never be able to go after a good looking woman.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of speaking to a good looking woman.
