Day 246

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of getting out and doing stuff.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of facing my fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of talking to women.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of standing up to people.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of being truthful and honest

with others and myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of leaving behind the old and

starting anew.

Day 245 - Confidence and Sexuality

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself and to have the confidence to fuck hot women.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to feel confident in my attractiveness towards the women I am most attracted to.
I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to feel confident in my looks.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to feel confident in my body naked around a woman I consider to be smoking hot.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to feel confident in my sexual expressions.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself the confidence to be who I want to be and stand up for who i want to be and what i want to live as me as my expression.

Day 244 - Value of Facebook? Who should get all the profits?

There is nothing wrong with a free service that harvests its user information to generate a return on investment. Within capitalism that is totally fine and is a part of the whole goal of the service in the first place, to generate a profit. To say otherwise would be dishonest unless of course the profits somehow went back to the users at some point instead of just mainly the capital suppliers who provided the whole 'brick and mortar' foundation in the form of money aka. capital in the beginning and the service creators, managers, and servants.


This is why publishing is so important because within the capitalist system nothing creative gets done without the 'capitalists' investment into such things - and this is only influenced by the 'capitalists' 'aim goals'. Usually  that has to do with 'turning a profit' and 'generating cash flow' unless they are interested in 'changing the world' or 'making a difference'. Thus it could take many years before an idea, framework, or system, is actually implemented full scale inside the system due to the nature of how capitalists choose what is to be capitalised or not, this is why it is so important to publish no matter who you are because everyone has great ideas. They are just rarely written down, much less built, and 'once a blue moon' actually implemented to the point of being substantially etched into consciousness to where it is an ongoing 'paradigm', 'part of society', or becomes 'just the the way it is' as they say out of the lack for the ability to explain how things come about and form within society, human endeavor, human life, and human consicousness.


Which brings up an interesting point because within a service that is 'harvesting' its users information and the primary utility of that service is a 'medium to facillitate publishing' then that service's value is really derived from the users ingenuity in ideas that they 'publish' - not their information for which they can be targeted for advertising. That is only a part of the 'capitalist' ideal/notion of 'investing' which serves no purpose really but to make them money which is based out of survivalism(a false ideal and not best for all in practice). 

So if the value of a service is derived from the users 'publishings' then that would indicate that the 'exchange' would go to the 'highest ingenuity in thought published', 'consistency of ingenuity', 'paradigm shifting ingenuity of thought published',  instead of just to the 'harvester of personal information' who mainly just acts as facillitators and managers of the medium itself after it is implemented and expanded to the point of global popularity wherein that which is published is exchanged all over the world and thus by virtue of that reach it is changing the world. Thus the quality of that which is published becomes the metric by which to measure one's value that one has offered to the world through publishing on a service that is worldwide popular.

These intricacies are important to consider when a company produces a product or service that so many people use, and whether the brand that they are portraying is actually genuine at the end and in daily practice.

Day 243 - George H.W. Bush Died - After Thoughts

As the ex president George H.W. Bush has passed away 7 months after his long time wife passed in April of this year there have been expectedly many articles within the newspace about his passing, his legacy, his accolades, history, accomplishments, and by somes critique failures or misdoings. I think this is a good time for all who find this event within themselves or see this event as an opportunity to 'expose the real man' within the context of judging what he did or did not do as president of the most powerful nation on earth in modern times, to sit back and reflect on the true cause for somebody to do what he had done in his time, put yourselves in his shoes self-honestly, and contemplate the reasons for why he did what he did. Within this exercise keep it in your mind the principles of equality and oneness when examining his life especially if you find yourself tending to judge his actions, his morals, or his life as whole as far as the value he brought to the world. Also keep in your mind and try to understand that if we as a collective or individually continue to judge one another instead of seeing/realizing the true root or cause for one another's actions then we will never come to an understanding of one another or ourselves because within the principle of equality and oneness we are each other, existing as reflections of one another as references for who we are, and within that we each have a response-ability to act or respond in ways that are founded within these principles, as so doing would create the best consequences for them and ourselves. As long as understanding is missing, as long as we are not harped on coming to an understanding of ourselves and each other, and as long as we are 'hell bent' on taking revenge instead of coming to a solution, agreement, or mutual understanding, then the world will continue as it does to our inevitable demise individually and collectively as a consequence for our failures individual and collective to not take response-ability for our actions, what we create, how we create it, and how that ripples out unto the world.

Instead of judging the man, judge the systems to converged and compelled him to take the steps that he did, to no fault of his own but following what had already been practically laid out and planned for him since birth in a system of survivalism and competition as some sort of God or relgiion.


post on facebook in response to a post based in a judgmental nature regarding the life of George H W Bush :
The problem isn't Bush. Not to diminish the 'crimes' that he committed, but in this economic system he probably did what he did to further his accolades, resume, and pockets. That doesn't necessarily make him a criminal (albeit some of what he did violated international law such as the invasion of Iraq/Kuwait in the early 90's). The problem is the economic incentives that would compel an individual to do such things, directly or indirectly cause the deaths of many people armed or not, and take such actions that he did whether they be deemed 'just' or not. Probably many if not most of the things he did could be defended or justified in many ways using the amalgams that many if not most deem as self evident truths. Such as 'defending one's country'. How does one quantify what 'defending one's country' really entails when the answer is multi-faceted and based on a multidimensional, multifaceted set of factors? Eg. If oil were to be finite and each country had to manifest its own production or acquisition of it, and each country's economies were primarily based on this to keep running efficiently without a complete overhaul or sudden paradigm shift that would wreak havoc on its society, then wouldn't any means necessary to acquire or produce this material be deemed 'defending one's country'? How could not the entire country be deemed responsible for any injustices that occur under its watch? The real problem is the pasttimes handed down, traditions, beliefs, and ideals that many stick to regardless of the evidence of how so doing can create consequences for themselves, their families, their cultures, their countries, and their world as a whole.

When man's law is not directly attributed to and/or derived from 'god's' law there is a disconnect and no real accountability at a micro or macro level for anybody. This must change or else no man can be judged rightly or justly as everything compells him to such, as everybody blindly, tacitly, and drunkenly supports the very system that produces him to be such a way.