Day 199

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of failure to constantly drive me to seek someone in my family especially my mother and or brothers to save me or bail me out of my financial condition.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear that if I were to fail that it would be the end and if I were to end up homeless then I would have lost my life, and I would never cone back from it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that failure is the end and to have no money would be the end not realizing that it is only the beginning.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the belief that I must rely ob others for money not realizing that as long as I do I will never be free and learn to use my skills knowledge aptitude and abilities to make my destiny.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that my mother and father are simply designed to keep me from ever making any mistakes or failing so that I would never learn from them which in affect is keeping me trapped in a loop of dependence that is based in fear not practical reality because mistakes are what makes you learn.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of cutting all ties with family with my mother and father and create my own life which would allow me to essentially expand mysekf my awareness and my capabilities practically in reality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of heeding the call of life to explore and to create without dependence on others ever again.

Good riddance. Till here no further. Fuck you mom and dad.

Day 198

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought "money is the root of all evil".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought "money is hard to make".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought "the pursuit of money is basically evil".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought "the love of money is the root of all evil".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought "it is hard without money".

Day 197

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hold onto limitations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto my limitations, fears, and insecurities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put doubt in places where it is not due.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have a choice of whether or not I choose what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of hurting people or being hurt by people close to me. 

Day 196

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of Lisa leaving me or hiding things from me.

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed the fear of making it Work with Lisa.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of ending up all alone.

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed the fear of being alone forever.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of losing my best friend in Lisa.

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed the fear of not having anybody there for me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of creating agreements according to what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of promoting myself and what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of working a business, hiring employees, and focusing on gaining new clients.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of focus in on business as y means for income and self expansion rather than being an employee.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of business as a means for income and self development.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of of starting and running a new business.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear of failing in business.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear that business will not be what I hope or think it is going to be or that i will lose my drive or motivation and as a result fail.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear that I will never succeed in business.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the fear that business will not hieldba good life.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see realise and understand that business can yieldbmuch more in terms of finance than any job will ever yield.

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed the fear of not posting blogs and the consequences thereof.

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed the fear of missing a blog and not writing consecutive days in a row.

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed the fear of not posting my blogs on a daily basis.

I forgive myself that have not accepted and allowed myself to console in writing and speaking self forgiveness out loud.