Self-Forgiveness

There was a moment at my apartment clubhouse where there was a girl there that I find attractive and cute and could be fun to hang out with - we didn't speak to each other and I felt guilty and bad that we didn't talk. I asked for my parking pass and they gave it to me. I felt insecure around the three and didn't feel as though i could be around them self-honestly. I felt angry for the way I interacted with them. I kept going back to this moment in my mind and all of the past associations with this girl specifically and a guy that was there as well. I experienced myself as guilty and regretful for who I have been towards these two people in the past. I experience fear with regards to speaking to this woman with regards to saying hi or whats up. I didn't like how I experienced myself afterwards as regretful, guilty, and angry. I kept on going back to these past moments with these people in my mind. I felt regretful that I wasn't self-honest enough to ask this girl if she wanted to hang out whenever I first met/saw her.

I experienced regret that I did not take the initiative to get to know this girl and find out who she is and how she lives her reality? I find myself going back when I had the thought of asking her if she would like to hang out sometime but then I physically didn't do it - and now there is sort of that regret every time I see her again. Or more so there is an awkwardness between me and her maybe because she thinks I'm cute but I have no way of knowing that unless she expresses her interest. And maybe there is fear that she won't want to hang out with me so there is that comfort of remaining the way our relationship is today(nonexistent). But its like I don't know how to express interest in her without just coming out and saying that is the truth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear talking to this girl who I think is cute.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of the desire to be in a relationship or girlfriend/boyfriend type of deal with this particular woman.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought "this girl likes me - I can tell".
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought "this girl won't go out with me - she is too cool".
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought "this girl thinks I am a nut".
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought "this girl wants to be in a relationship with me".
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought "this girl wants to be together with me".
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought "this girl wants to be my girl".
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the visual imagination of me talking to this woman in the clubhouse of my apartments.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the visual imagination of this woman and I in a relationship.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the visual imagination of this woman coming up to me or my car and talking to me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the visual imagination of this woman and I having intercourse.

I commit myself to stop these visualizations, imaginations and thoughts of having sex with this woman and or being in an intimate relationship to this woman. 

Equal Money?

Yes. Imagine a world where you have all the basic necessities free of fear of making enough money to live. Wouldn't this be nice? Everything you need is already there for the taking and there is no worry about whether or not your next paycheck is going to be sufficient to sustain for the rest of the month or the next week or two weeks?

Within an Equal Money System there will be goods for everyone and this will be free of charge. Everything will be enough for you to live for your entire life - only working four years as a requirement.

Isn't working for a measly paycheck at minimum wage pretty shitty? I bet it is - because that is shit wages - of course not as bad as people in sweatshop factories in Asia. But you're not there are you. You're in industrialized megacenters of wealth. So forget about the sweatshops for a moment. Its you. Its all about you. What do you want from your reality? What would you like to have for your children? All the goods in the world to sustain and feed your family.

With Equal Money every single person will be fed, housed, clothed, and given basic necessities which can be there at a dignified quality. Only if all will contribute to help establish this basic economic necessity.  

Terrorist Attack in Benghazi

 Four Americans including the ambassador to Libya were murdered in an attack on the U.S. consulate in Benghazi, Libya on September 11, 2012. There has been a lot of criticism of the administrations handling of the Benghazi  attack. The two reported causes and/or potential causes of the attack were: 1. it was a spontaneous reaction to a youtube video which showed the tenants of Islam negatively 2. it was a pre-planned terrorist attack planned for the 9/11 anniversary. The video has apparently been posted on a youtube channel since July of this year.

The administration's initial handling or press release on the findings of the proposed cause of this attack was that it was a "spontaneous occurrence that happened in relation to a video" says White House Press Secretary.

Later the Secretary of State concluded that the attacks on the U.S. embassy in Benghazi was indeed a "terrorist attack". However no statements as to whether these attacks were "pre-planned" have been made by this administration directly. 

The attack on Benghazi killed three former Navy Seals and the U.S. ambassador to Libya. These men were surrounded by an army of militiamen with heavy weaponry including rocket propelled grenades(1).

The attack initially raised questions as to the security level of this US consulate. The administration has been taking flack on failing to provide enough security for the consulate to be able to deal with a band of militiamen with heavy weaponry as is the case with this recent terrorist attack.

The initial release of information as the proposed link or cause of the Benghazi attack stirred much outcry and rage across the U.S. media. The claim that it was a spontaneous reaction to a video enraged many people on the right and left of the political spectrum leading to questioning of whether this intelligence or explanation was in fact legitimate. Most claim that the administration was deliberately misleading the American public in order to gain an upper hand in this year's presidential election as noted by a Fox News website poll.

Numerous claims have been made that say that the president did not acknowledge that this was a terrorist attack until fourteen days after the attack which conflicts with his press statement the day after the attack, "No acts of terror will ever shake the resolve of this great nation, alter that character, or eclipse the light of the values that we stand for."(2).

Terrorism is increasing despite efforts made by the U.S. and its allies in the middle-east. We need an economic system that will give everybody enough money so people won't take their anger out on those who stand as pillars of today's economic system.  Terrorism and Jihad-ism is rooted in anger so lets stop this by implementing common sense solutions for the world's problems - that is - an economic system that considers all equally. And also common sense says violence is inherently destructive - which only perpetuates the system and creates more violence- so lets stop and implement solutions that really work - that is an Equal Money System.

1. http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2012/10/09/timeline-new-details-sept-11-consulate-attack-in-libya/
2. http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2012/10/16/fact-check-did-obama-really-call-consulate-attack-in-libya-act-terror/
3. http://www.dailykos.com/story/2012/10/17/1145757/-Libya-Another-Act-of-Terror-Obama-s-Rose-Garden-Speech-9-12-2012

Equal Money System

    The Equal Money System will bring about a new world that cannot be conceived by anyone at this point because it will establish basic living principles as the foundation of our day to day living.

The Equal Money System is the best system that will support all and give all the chance to live a dignified life. With food, water, shelter, education, and healthcare the human being can amount to something good and something worth something.

Everybody requires basic shit so lets establish this economic system so all can see the benefits of living with sufficient money.

I'm tired of bullshit. Lets give ourselves the ability to see that everybody has these things.